Technically

Constellations are just stars connected by invisible lines.  Created by man a long time ago.   

Each of us could look up at the sky at night and see whatever we want to see.  We could connect the dots into any reality we want.  I think about that a lot.

Henri

I have shouted to God and the Virgin, but they have not shouted back and I'm not interested in the still small voice. Surely a god can meet passion with passion?
She says he can.
Then he should.
-The Passion, Jeanette Winterson

It's funny

how the way people are on Facebook is in no way how they are in real life.  Or in front of me.  That may be a better way to put it.  It's all glitter and smiles and good riddance on Facebook but in person you see the madness. Maybe it should be called SaveFacebook because it seems like everyone's just putting up these sunsetty fronts of who they wish they were.

This is How

This is how you survive the unsurvivable, this is how you lose that which you cannot bear to lose, this is how you reinvent yourself, overcome your abusers, fulfill your ambitions and meet the love of your life: by following what is true, no matter where it leads you.” 
- Augusten Burroughs

I wonder

if I'm too inconsistent to have a steady relationship.  Or if I'm too fucking...mentally clouded...to have a steady anything.

Just yesterday

I was talking to someone I hadn't seen in a while.  We were carrying on a serious conversation and I was responding, making a point, and in mid-sentence I forgot what point I was trying to make and just stood there like an idiot.  I do that ALL THE TIME.  I hate it.  Mental paralysis.

good job, crocodile

3sphynxmom: i learned to stop caring so much about what people thought of me

i focused so much on what other people wanted for me and how i should be perceived by others. once i quit that, i was fine and so much happier.

Krista: but i feel like you werent actually normal until you met her.

sierra made you seem crazy as well.

3sphynxmom: no here's the difference

im not obsessing over courtney

i obsessed over everyone i was with

i felt like i wasnt good enough, they didnt like me enough, i had to prove something.

i didn't trust or understand. i put so much effort into the people i was with that i would get lost in who they were, and lose myself.

it was unhealthy.

Krista: i agree

i wonder how you changed.

3sphynxmom:i was fed up with feeling that way

Krista: ohh okay

well good job

3sphynxmom: i know im a good person and deserve someone equally as good. i have ONE life. ONE.

i wasn't going to spend it being miserable and chasing people that didn't want me how i wanted them.

Krista: im proud of you

3sphynxmom: :)

Krista: you took the pro-active approach which i believe is the correct one

3sphynxmom: what's the alternative

Krista: the "it'll happen when it's supposed to" approach

3sphynxmom: you have to make good things happen. good things happen to people that deserve them.

Krista: a lot of people spend their time being miserable waiting for the 'right time' but they don't realize they need to create this right time.

3sphynxmom: if you sit around basking in your problems and never change them...nothing will change. it's logical.

Krista: "the first thing you should do is take a look at your life and then, if necessary, get out of your own way."

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I don't like

post-its like this. I don't wanna have to flip it every time I want a piece! Lazy.

Today

I went with Lauren to her friend's child's birthday party. It was decked out in Mickey Mouse. From Mickey-shaped sandwiches to the parents coordinating in red and yellow. The mom even had yellow fingernails, haha. It was really cool but also made me anxious to start a family. And contrary to popular belief, I do want a family. :)

Genius

E,P,L

It's still two human beings trying to get along, so it's going to be complicated. And love is always complicated. But humans must try to love each other, darling. We must get our hearts broken sometimes. This is a good sign, having a broken heart. It means we have tried for something.

-Elizabeth Gilbert

Eat, Pray, Love: Me

Bible: Others

Imagine a world without free knowledge

Today, Wikipedia, Google and others are protesting against government legislation that will prohibit people from searching about piracy.  Of course, what most people fail to realize is that this is just another part of Big Brother seizing your "freedoms."  I think it's cool that these huge search engines have stood up in protest.  It's definitely one of the best ways for people to take notice.