Ain't that the truth. Unpleasant things happened this past year, that's definite. I go back and forth between anger and gratuity, depending on my mood. Which changes every 6 minutes, about.
When something bad's happening to me, it feels so specific. Like I'm being singled out and discriminated against. But that's not true. I mean, it can't be true, right? Other people are dealing with the same things or MUCH worse. This book I was recently reading said something about how you may feel all alone when you're up at 3 in the morning pondering your life, but really, there's many other people doing the same thing. And so you're not really alone at all. Reading that put me at ease- for the moment.
When I unclothe myself of pride and contempt, I'm thankful for the past year. I'm thankful for those that I've met and things that have happened. They weren't pleasant then and for a long time I felt like nothing could get better, but it did. There are things in my life that I want to change, of course, but I'm happy for the way things are going. There are no asterisks or parenthesis by my feelings. They just are. I suppose I've been set free.
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