It's a depressant. When can you honestly remember a time that it didn't make you feel in the least bit down? If you're thinking of certain times, you're lucky. I've had many, many fun nights involving alcohol but the majority of those have involved miserable next days so that negates an entire fun time. There have always been consequences to that awesome night.
I enjoy drinking just to relax, or with friends at a restaurant, but more and more I've noticed that going out and drinking just isn't my thing anymore. Maybe to take out the finality of that statement, I'll say that it's not my thing at the moment. It may become my thing in the future, but at this time, it's not. I prefer a chill evening and a glass of wine as opposed to a dance floor and a bar tab.
It may be because I don't go with the same people now that I went with when I first started going out a lot. They've all...stopped. For one reason or another. I feel like I need to do that, too. I need a break. I need to find something better to do with my time. What, though? I work M-F and have the weekends off so Saturday nights are always the nights that I'm itching to go out. I'm too ADD and anxious to lay around and watch movies all day and night or I would.
I want/need to find something to fulfill my need for entertainment that doesn't involve drinking and regrets. Drinking AKA regrets. Who knows what that'll be 'cause I've been waiting for the answer to that for a long time and nothing has surfaced. Oh well.
I guess I could just get over myself for long enough to realize that it's okay to do nothing. Doing nothing is something we don't take advantage of enough. And by we, I mean the American working class. We work too much and spend our weekends doing everything we can not to think about work. Lettuce relax and enjoy the quiet nights that ask nothing of us but our acquaintance, if that.
