Thought 1:
When someone is feeling sad or sorry for themselves, I initially think about what their situation is. It's natural to wonder why and make assumptions from the outside looking in. In most cases, looking in isn't really what's happening, though. Looking around is probably a more correct way to put it. I'm looking around them at what I think I know. I analyze events, moments shared between us, things they've said (whether aloud ((aka facebook)) or in passing ((um, while drunk?))), forget what I'm even thinking about, and then make a grand assumption on what their problem is.
Notice how I went from saying they're sad to saying they have a problem. Those two words can easily go hand in hand in some instances but in this case that's just my tacky, exaggerated prose taking over and confusing fiction and super-fiction.
Okay, so, my usual answer to why I feel someone is sad or feeling sorry for themselves isn't even an answer. And by "someone," I mean myself. Now you're probably (more) confused, wondering what the hell I'm talking about with this "looking in" and "looking around" bullshit. Well honestly, I don't know myself very well.
I was going to try and make that sound more humorous or profound but it's not that funny. Or deep. It is what it is. Now back to the non-answer: While attending my self-thrown pity-party, I eventually tell myself that I shouldn't be sad because things could be so much worse for me. I could be missing a limb. I could live in another country where women are nothing. I could have rabies. Or babies. Enough examples, you get the point. I almost always tell myself that I should just stop being selfish because there's a much more sad world out there than what I see and feel.
Thought 2:
While it is very accurate to say that there is a much sadder world than the one I have been dealt, I don't find it selfish to be sad about my life. After all, it's my life. Ethnocentrism is looked down upon because of the selfishness that it relates itself to. I don't like the idea of people only seeing their country and their life and taking no mind of what's going on outside of their small universe. Having said that, I also find it hard to have a worldly view/attitude towards life. Unless you've visited and experienced it, you don't really know. It's understandable to only understand and have an interest in what you're doing. We can feel for the people in Haiti and donate to them, but we will never know what it's truly like to live how they're living at this moment in time. Or how about the residents of Martha's Vineyard? We don't know what it's like to be them, either, and they're American. I just wanted to say that because not all examples have to induce sorrowful feelings for third-world countries.
I'm sure I've completely lost you, as I've lost myself, but I'm going to try and verbalize the two sides of the debate into two phrases just so I don't feel like this is a useless, unfinished post.
Your life isn't that bad, stop your crying versus You can cry whenever you want
I think I agree more with crying whenever I want because like I said, life to me...is my life. THEE ENDDD.
I vote to cry whenever you want to as well. It's your life, like you said, so of course it's the center of your world. If you didn't focus on yourself and your own issues a lot of time then you'd have a handful of other issues. catch 22 huh? so why not care about what you have control over?
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