High School Reunion?

My ten year reunion is in 2015. I have a while. I'm almost certain that by then, I'll still cringe at the thought of going. I don't want to face all the assholes from that place. Not that they were rude to me specifically. It was just hard fitting in unless you were "one of them." I definitely wasn't one of them. I wasn't in a group of friends at all. One of the most vivid memories of my high school days were eating lunch alone in the locker room bathroom stalls during my sophomore year. My main focus every day was getting through lunch. Then I was okay the rest of the day. By the time I was a junior I could go off-campus for lunch. Thank goodness. Then no one would see how alone I was.

I'm so different now. As is everyone else in the world from 5 years ago, so that's not saying much. But I'm really different. I have a girlfriend now and I had a boyfriend then. I have friends. Lots of friends. Who want to hang out with me. More than I'd like sometimes, to be honest. Now I'm craving alone time. Or have I always been alone? Just in different ways?

I haven't figured that out, yet. But I do know that I'm thankful I found a good group of friends to surround myself with. I'm also thankful for my amazing family. And for having a degree. And a job. And a home.

Having said that, fuck a reunion! I'm going to try my hardest to be able to use the excuse that I live too far away to attend. Wish me luck!